Old Woman and the Bear
Yesterday I had chemo, the rougher variety, the mustard gas one. I had been nervous about it all last week- mostly afraid of the uncomfort, the potential vomiting, losing my appetite and feeling overall lousy again. They gave me a lot of drugs that made me feel drowsy and keep me from throwing up. When I got home, I wanted to watch something pleasant on T.V. so I watched an episode from "The Planet Earth" dvd about seasonal forests (the fourth disk in the series). It starts out in the taiga with footage of a moose and a lynx. It also looms in on the Northwest coast forests, which made me nostalgic for British Columbia. I fell asleep during the program and when the program finished out it went to the main menu screen which played the same peaceful, less-than-one minute orchestral piece over and over again. This pleasant melody got into the background of my dream. My dream was beautiful, too. It featured an old woman with long, bright white hair that was loosely piled on her head. She was very tall and wearing a long heather gray sweatshirt over jeans and black rubber galoshes. She was hiding halfway behind a pine tree. It seemed she was all alone in a forest in the mountains and there were melting patches of snow here and there. The sun was very bright, and it seemed to be about mid-day and springtime. She was looking across to another pine tree where a tall grizzly bear was halfway hiding behind, standing on it's hind legs. They were looking at each other for a while, and then the woman slowly stepped away from her tree and moved towards the bear. The bear did the same. The two walked towards each other and the woman had tears in her eyes. She hadn't seen her old friend in years, and she knew it was her friend from long ago. They had found each other again. It was such a nice dream!